“I went there with fears. A sentence in the newsletter encouraged me: ’The one, who believes, will not flee.’ I had lots of questions, yet the one to which I most wanted an answer, without formulating it, was this: How was God gracious? Of course I always pictured God for myself, in whom I believed, yet mostly fearing Him rather than loving Him, and I also departed from Him.

God came after me, not in a painless, yet wonderful way, didn’t let me perish and began teaching me how He was. I learned lots of things with my intellect, but I couldn’t feel His love, acceptance and forgiveness.

At this conference I realised God didn’t resemble my father, rather He is another Father, who follows his child’s path with a loving look, whatever the child may do.

I do not know what will happen to my husband and what we may expect, yet I feel now that I am safe. I pray I will not lose this feeling and also that it would not be just a passing excitement. At the Conference I met lots of people, though they did not mention God with every second word, yet one could feel God’s presence in them. I dream about becoming such a person.”